Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Short Stories
“Sit up in the saddle son.”
Landry looked up at Pop with the sun in his eyes.
“This is going to be hard for you. But Pa beat it in to me
and I’ll beat it in to you. It’s the story of our family, Lan.”
Pop rode off after a few head that had wandered off into the
brush. Landry looked down at the reins in his hands. The herd was grazing there
in the southeast pasture. They hadn’t the money to keep up the rights on the
northern pasture. Sometimes he still snuck in at dusk, after supper, to throw
rocks in the tank. The herd was thinner than last year. The season’d been dry
and the feed lot wouldn’t give the good feed on account of the Perse outfit
buying up the stock. But the southern pasture still had good grass and the
river still had enough to get them through. That’s what Pop had said. He had to
pee bad put Pop was still in the brush and he couldn’t get up on Jam’s horse
without a leg up. Besides, Pop had said
“A man doesn’t leave his herd. We got a job here- and that
job’ll be done.”
The sun was getting up in the afternoon and the cattle
started down beneath the cottonwood trees. One of the sickly calves trailed
behind the rest and Lan tried to help it along but it had come in to the world
sick and would never catch up. Pop had had a mind to put him down but Lan had
cried and begged him not to. Pop had beat him bad for that. But he hadn’t put
him down. They needed every head they had he’d said and mother had always
preached showing kindness to the sick. Lan and the calf were trailing the herd
by a distance when Pop rode up behind him with the strays.
“What did I say about staying with the herd? A man’s gotta
be dependable, Lan. You stay with the calf, I’m going to get these four down to
the trees and come back for you.”
Lan watched Pop ride on ahead.
The calf swayed and fell. It turned and looked at Lan with a
pleadingly barren look. The cottonwood trees blinked at them in the dirt
breeze. Lan got his leg over the horse, stood on one of the stirrups before
falling back, landing in a cloud of dust beside the calf. The dust stained his
face in messy streaks of tears and child’s sweat. The calf bleats as he holds
his breath, trying to stop the crying before pop gets back. He stands up, slaps
his hat against his leg like Pop a hundred times before and takes his rope down
from the saddle. Tying a tightening knot around the calf’s neck, Lan sits
behind the prostrate youngster and leans back, pulling the rope tight with his
boots pushing the calf’s head down. The weak calf struggles once, trying desperately
to regain its footing but Lan tries again. The calf’s blinks slow. Pop slowly
rides up to the pair. With tears muddying his streaked face Lan screams
“I’m putting him down, Pop!”
Pop gets down from his horse, removing the rifle from its
scabbard, whispering
“It’s ok son, you’re hurting him.”
Pop takes the
rope from Lan’s hands and loosens the knot from the dying calf’s neck. Lan sits
Indian style in the dirt as Pop shoots the calf, returns the rifle to its
scabbard, mounts his house, and turns to mind the herd.
That old guitar was the only thing that gave her pleasure now. Her voice is gone, lost in the cracks of her Palmal's. The ashtray holds her life in it- old coins, tokens, lighters, picks, stubs. The memories overflow onto the coffee table, sticking to the spilled, dried whiskey.
Not lookin for a handout, not a handup either, just leave me be. I don't mind the company, just be quiet a while. I just want to sit under this willow tree with the candle flicker leaves and the strangling roots. I want to sit between them and grind my cigarette butts into forts in the dirt- outposts in the shade.
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Late February
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Walking Wounded: In process; Struck Marbles
Here's some in process images of a stool incorporating steel, marbles, mahogany, epoxy, and glitter....I'm thinking of oil derricks, Red Adair, and boys shooting marbles in the dirt....
Radiators
I swiped an old radiator from a kitchen I'm renovating. I've been looking for old radiators for a few years now. I took it apart and have these awesome fish skeleton pieces to work with. This is going to be fun....
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Boots
Time for a new pair. They've been good to me- and will spend their retirement on construction sites.
Monday, February 18, 2013
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Nigel
Nigel hadn’t slept in a week. Literally hadn’t slept in a
week. Not a nap, a wink, not a damn bit. Rubbing the sides of his head with his
palms makes the light affect his eyes less. His eyes started getting sore on
day three. It’s day eight and the sore grows by exponents with each. Time is
slowing down for him and he’s feeling oddly powerful in his delerium. The peacefulness
in his power delerium makes him warm and his skin feel like it’s being rubbed
with balloons for static electricity.
“I
almost don’t want to sleep anymore.”
Sucking back the dribbling saliva from his dangling mouth,
he realizes there’s no one else in the convenience store. He likes his
job-plenty of time to scribble in his notebooks. He likes drawing dragon heads
best. The teeth always have to have the baby blood on them. They’re never
complete without the baby blood. He’d probably drawn a thousand baby blooded
fanged dragon heads on this stool in the Happy Home Deli. His sister wouldn’t
be there to pick him up for a few hours. She always drives too fast and takes
the wrong way home. Nigel always liked it better when their neighbor would
drive him. Mrs. Lanner would always drive slow by the shopping center so he
could see Kevin in the comic book store. Kevin was his friend because Kevin
also likes drawing dragon heads. Sometimes they would meet up at the park, down
past the end of the walking path where the ravine lives. Nigel had lots of
pencils. Different sizes, shapes, and colors. He liked drawing with the green
ones the best. Not the light green ones, those didn’t have enough dragon scales
in them. The darker ones had all the good scales.
No customers come in to the store.
The little princess cupcake bell rings as Stacy throws the door open like a
linebacker. Her thumping breath and popping gum always mean it’s time to put
the dragons away.
“Come one weirdo, I gotta get you
home and change before I meet Esther at the Pour House.”
“I
can’t leave until Sean gets here.”
“Shut up retard, nobody comes in
here anyway. Let’s go. And don’t forget your stupid backpack and coloring
books.”
“They’re not coloring books.
They’re dragons.”
“Whatever
retard.”
The dragon bodies were always harder to draw than the heads.
The fangs were the funnest because he got to make the sharp corners with the
oozy blood. Sometimes he made the blood orange because orange blood looks
cooler with the dark green than red.
The
cupcake bell rings again as Sean shuffles in to the store.
“I’m tired of that scooter. It
barely runs and those football homos are always throwin' stuff at me. How’s the
dragons Nige?”
“They’re good. I’m making the blood
orange now.”
“Orange huh? That’s cool- it’ll
look better with the green. You get any sleep yet?"
"huh?"
"Nothing. Look Nige, I can help you sleep. You gotta sleep bro."
"I don't want to sleep anymore. The dragons are better when I don't sleep."
Nigel carefully puts his pencils back into his dad’s old
tin, snaps the hinges closed, and slides his notebook and tin into his backpack
under the counter. Sean throws his jacket on the floor where Nigel’s backpack
sat, and leans his head back to squirt saline into his eyes. Nigel always thought
he lookd a little like a dragon when he blinked his eyes so quick after he put
the stuff in his eyes, like a little baby dragon. Nigel thinks the tears would
look better orange.
“Hey Stacy. What are you up to
tonight- isn’t there a bake sale somewhere you gotta be at?”
“Shut up loser. I’m going out- you
can’t come though, they don’t let scooters in the parking lot.”
“You know what they say about
scooters and fatties don’t you Stacy?”
“Shut up loser.”
“Bye
Sean.”
“Later
Nige.”
“C’mon
retard.”
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Story Time
I've been writing a lot recently. I haven't posted any writing in a long time. So here they are- first drafts- to see what comes out. Suck it out the tap.
Nick lights his cigarette. The hand rolled always smoke
better. He looks down the slope. It’s going to be a long day. The camera hangs
off his shoulder as he fiddles with the film in his jacket. He still shoots
film.
“I didn’t spend years learning to
develop to throw it away.”
The cigarrete hanging from the corner of his mouth, he looks
through the viewfinder, focusing on the old subway entrance. He likes shooting
entrances. The air is still chilly in gusts and he’s happy to have his sweater.
It had been his grandfather’s. A piece of ash catches in the scruff on his jaw
and lingers there a long moment before the breeze lifts it- floating in his
viewfinder’s line and then up and away. The strap snakes around his wrist,
through his hand, over his fingers- welding his hand to the old tool.
“I
need a new lens for this guy- he don’t see as good as he did.”
Squinting at the station entrance again, cars pass in front
of his vision, breaking his time.
“That
last one was shit, but the middle will come out allright.”
Turning, he walks down the hill.
The afternoon heat was tough to take this time of year. It
was so hot and dry her hair broke brittle in her face as she leaned over the
hood of the car, unfolding the truck stop map. It was hard to read with the sun
still beating through the dirt packed hood, still managing to blind her with
reflection. It was the first time they had stopped since they’d left last
night. The back seat was piled to the head rest with clothes, shoes, a coffee
pot, and some old journals. She’d put the guitar in the trunk. It had happened
so fast. There hadn’t been time to think about where she was going. And here,
100 miles out side of llano, she hadn’t the faintest idea.
“Cmon
Lulu, get back in the car, we gotta go.”
Lulu ripped through the tall grass on the far side of the
roadside ditch, peed on the back car tire and sat by the driver’s side door,
waiting to take shotgun.
He feels self conscious when she dresses like that. And her broke down boots speak her experience like a tapestry. No, like an indian belt. It's tough work and his hands hurt at the end of the day. He had played the conversation out in his mind a thousand times, each with a different outcome. She was already there when he walked in the door.
"What does sublime mean?"
"In art it was a painting that should the brutality and darkness of nature."
She hates this lipstick, it makes her feel like a whore. Lilly pops her lips together, thrusts the whore stick back into her grandmother's clutch and walks out of the bathroom. Miles had put a fresh whiskey in front of her cigarrettes. Her feet didn't touch the stool's crossbar, but if she sat up and scooched just so, her soles could rest. There was just too much to say.
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Saturday, February 9, 2013
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